Have not been blogging for 2 weeks... actually for 2 weeks.. many things happened.. many emotions... many thoughts... many things that i want to say it out.. yet many things to hide.. many things I had learnt.. on the other hand, many things i am unsured... many things that are confused... many things that i am inconfident in doing... many things that weighed me down..
I can't find time to blog them... and I can't find any words to pen down the thoughts and the feelings in me... I even tried to think of Chinese words... but what i can think of is 难以形容.... the more i tried to think... the more 辛苦 i am... like there is something very heavy in my heart...
Running away could be a good way... i realise i wanted to run away from many things but i know i can't... and i shouldn't.. but still i see me running... running away from my FYP project... from the FES matter... from church... from friends... from myself...
yes.. I am weak... I can't make firm decision.. I can't be sure of my project... I can't voice out the wrongs that I see... I can't understand many things... i can't stop thinking of evil... i am a sinner... yes i am a sinner.. and no one... no one except God can save... This is the only thing that i am sure of...
Hence, I dun need sympathy... because we are all in the same plight... Rather, teach me the word of God.. the power of salvation... help me to consider Christ... so that i can have my confidence in the Lord and not in my flesh... so that i may have the wisdom to deal with issues whilst still in the "now and not yet" .. I want to continue in learning God's Word.
1 comment:
hey sis! press on! the journey here on earth is hard, but, we're in it together. & the most impt part of the group is... JESUS & the Holy Spirit! we'll be able to go thru this... no matter how long the journey!!!
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