What a Thursday...

Went to the lunch time talk for the first time. The attendence wasn't as I expected. I was a bit sad though, that I didn't bring anyone with me to the talk, cuz I think that Wai had given a really great talk on Luke16: 13-31. Wai's talk had really challenge anyone there, not to sneer at Christ, but to listen to what He's speaking. That's y... i wished that i had brought someone with me. But who can I ask..?? How can I ask..? Or am I ashamed to ask..? No time to ask..?? Probably, I was tired... or probably I'm stressed.. dejecting thoughts kept creeping into my mind...

Anyway, gotta lead a BS for the first time this semster. I thought that my points had been driven across, but as I ask one to pray for us, it seems to me that the msg haven't impacted them as much as it had impacted me... haiz... guess now I can only pray for them liaoz lahz...

Music Min was good... Grace and Ray joined us. The dynamic was good i thought, though we need more guys... Haiz.. and we haven't send the proposal letters to the shopping centers yet... arrgg... hope we still have the chance to perform in the shopping malls ahz...

Tuition...

oh no... mi stressed up now!! KLin's having her AMaths paper on Monday... arrggg...! how..??
Dunno she can pass or not...
KLin is my second tuition kid, which one that I have no control at all. She is one kind whose attention divert easily... and talk a lot. It's very hard to teach her, not much to say to keep to my teaching plan. Hence, I will always have to extend the tuition time, because of that. Not only that I can't give her any homewk becuz she wldn't have time to do. Sad!

I try to be a good example to her... a christian example though, ... but I realised I can't because I dun have the chance to take the time from her. Yes, she is a Christian... a "Jesus loves ME" christian. She has this thinking that she is always right, and that the ppl around her are not. Her dad talked to me abt her before, and he seems to give in to her in anything. I wonder if it's good...

Anyway... I juz wanna whine a bit lahz... that KLin is really a hard case to teach.. but if from a friend POV, she is very fun loving gal... the things she shared are all very interesting, and yaz, glad tt she do share her prob and feelings too.... anyway...

One dead beat body... two swollen eyes...

I just finished my fifth assignment of sc443... ya.. i know that's a bit late, considering that the date due was 2 days ago. But I really felt a great sense of satisfaction... ? umm... more of enjoyment and relief after i completed the thing... ya and also, the aches around my neck and back, I felt them too. Had been spending the last 26 hours staring into my computer,
working out the collision detection..... (which mean i'd missed school again... haiz sianz) ... This is the really an assignment, i guess, in my entire ntu life that i'd spent sleepless night doing the programming... well sad to say, i think i really like this course manzz... ha.

I was telling Gfeng yesterday that the things that motivate or interest me, in school now, is the gospel and this computer game programming... haha. That's sound quite bad harz.. well guess, I had make myself be interested in other stuffs like RTS and FYP.... think my supervisor gonna kill me soon...

What a day...

What a lousy day today... the mood was super down due to the Algo quiz, probably also due to the lack of sleep while preparing for it. The quiz, however, did not go well. I can't finish the 5 questions.. worse, I can only do 2 questions. The rest I just crapped thru... sad.

Didn't go for CG today... planning to help out in Ann's CG on Thurs instead. So, went for tuition in the end. As I was taking MRT to Queenstown, I saw Rosemary, my Secondary Sch pal whom I used to be very close to... but now.... we become passagener to each other. ..
This really make me distressed and I told my tuition kid abt this. I lamented that friendship between people is hard to last... she commented tt people are quick to change... I wonder is it my fault of not making an effort to catch up w them. She said that good friendship is hard to get... I agreed... she said must cherish... I started to think abt my relationships with people in genreal - my clique in JC, friends in NTU and folks from church... people that I dun wish to neglect... Thinking this makes me sad and fearful. I'm so afraid to forget the things that I dun want to forget; and not do things that I want to do...

Music Ministry Camp...

Just came back from music min training camp... was very encouraged by the minners, and felt very glad that we had learnt and challenged of what it means of to worship God-- which is in view of God's mercy, offering our bodies as a living sacrifices... not conformed to the pattern of the world but in renewal of the mind... so that in every aspects, be it to friends, to enemies or to governments we can love and consider them higher than us (this is my summary of Romans 12-13). Worship, therefore is not just singing songs, but of every words and deeds we do and say to ppl shows tt we are God's ppl. With that, where is the place of music? Well, bible recorded tt ppl sing songs to one another and to God to thank God of His great Mercy and Love to us. Hence, we sing, not to enter God's Presence, but to express our thankfulness that we can be in God's presence every moment thru the blood of Jesus.

じゃ.... that's what I had learnt.... um so talking about the fellowship, I would have to say tt 2d1n was too short. Slept in a big function room with Grace only while we chatted, in e dark, for quite some time. She told me some horror stories that caused me to freaked out...(cuz we are in a big dark room, and my mind is animating the things she'd said, like white girl at the corner.... ) while I shared some of my deep thoughts to her...

Now that e camp had ended, amazingly I was not very tired but was more stressed then. I would have to say that i am worry about my school work because it's now the end of Friday liaoz, and I hav so much thing not done. Really anxious of the coming Algo quiz on Mon.....
decided to hand in the Assignment 5 of Computer Game late liaoz... well and I muz start doing my FYP... and there is 401 quiz comin up.... haiiiizzz... so much things, so little time... Heeellllppp

Met yifen, nie's char and yongj up @ millenium walk to have a meeting regarding the annual camp. This is my first time in a camp committee, hence I was a bit unsure of what am I supposed to do and what to suggest. But soon, I know what am I supposed to do liaoz... and it's seemed quite a load manzz.. nevertheless, it's still a good experience to me!

We went to tcc for our discussion... hee and that's my first time there @ TCC! The Cuppocino there is beautiful. They topped the cuppocino with whipped cream and sprinkled lemon peel plus a bit of cinnamon powder and a cinnamon stick for stirring. Interesting desu! でも... the coffee taste for the cuppocino is not strong enuff to satisfy my bud...

Went for a haircut wif Yifen... but because my hair is longer, yifen finish and left first, and I am late for movie with my sis... arhh

Can't Stop talking about Christ...

Today I had woke up early for church... Thanks to my sis's LG phone and also to Han Min too, for his effort to call and wake me up. However, I was still late ... 10 minutes latezz.. argg.. Anyway, I went up to the front to sit w my cell ppl for the 1st time... . Sermon was on the summary of the book of Acts... P.Ian ends of the series of Acts by challengin the youths to "shout", "prove" and "be" God's story... can see that P.Ian had tried his best deliver the msg lahz... though the example he trying to make with Johnson...was a bit duh...hahah.. poor Johnson!

Catch up with Michelle after service... talk Christ to her to encourage her to stand firm in the gospel. Also to help her to understand the church-ing issue... Thereafter, she shared abt a fren who argue tt the bible is contradicting. She tried to help this fren... but as she told me that her cell leader agreed that the bible is contradicting becuz man do make mistakes... ! I was so SHOCKED..!!! and she actually reply tt guy this way !!! How can God's Word be contradicting? If so, aren't we believing in a contradictin msg? I was quite agitated... and soon I was in my defending mode... tryin to help her to see that bible is not contradicting... but we just had no enough time for one another becuz we had to attend our cell respectively after service....
So the talk ended quite abruptly.

After cell, I had a great talk with Sixian over lunch... sharpening our understanding of God while we talked about "Christ-Experiences", about "God's Calling", about Man's Pride and "Hearing God". I must really thank God, the Holy Spirit who had aided both of us to reach a common ground to the issues tt we were discussing. Now shall only pray that we could continue to remain faithful in Christ.

Talked about Christ to my tuition kid once again, for she brought up a question regarding the bible. I tried to answer her, where from there, I do the "2 ways to live" with her.. offering 2 choices for her to respond. Felt that today's sharing was more completed, because it doesn't just ended with the "facts/ theory" about Christianity but also a chance for her to choose which way to live. I told her no obligation... she can take her time. But I say to her tt her decision matters life and death .. hence i want her to tell me if she'd chose to allow Jesus as her Lord; whilst I will cont to speak Christ to her if she doesn't... this what i told her, and she's ok w it.. hahaah.

Sixian called up, and we did GIJ over the phone. Then again, we started to talk about Christ. I warned her about the post-modernism phenomenon tt we had now... that the world are becoming "experiencing" now. There are so many means for people to feel "peace" and "spiritual"... people can go for yoga, listen to zen music, make donations, mediatation , or... going to church, sing songs with "spirit" and "truth", feeling the "peace of God", hearing the "voice of God" . Everything people do becomes very subjective... nothing is absolute... everything is relative. Hence there will be these ppl will always ask those, who hold fast to the one truth, to be more open to other opinions. Are we, the people who were entrusted with the gospel, be conformed to the world? Are we ashame of the plain truth of Christ tt is not "experiencing" but said 'blessed are those who have not seen ant yet have believed ' ? I'd challenged her in the end, (and all of us here) to stay faithful to the one truth - Jesus Christ. And not "Christ ++"...

It's just so different...

Trying to start a conversation with my sis just now, since we have not been doing so for this week; i just wanted to know how is she so far, and also to chat w her, so as to keep her awaked for the drama show later... But it's just not right...! Normally, it's she who will come and initiate a conversation, not me! It's she who will talk and i would listened.. Thus it's just so different when i try to do the same... My attempt, no doubt, was fruitless... i try to it almost ended up in a quarrel instead... blame on me manzz...

Last Friday of Term 1...

I'd arranged my hair to a "twisted-in bun" today just before going to sch, since I was thinking of playing around with my hair while i still have them long! The effect was good, and that really started off my day happy... School today was great, I'd received a good news(not the gospel though), that is SC443 will be a open book examz... yippeeee! And 401 was good too, I was able to understand the qns that were gone thru in lect amazingly...

Lunching then with tree and ray when i tried jap curry don for the 1st time... おいいしです..
and most importantly, it's not spicy! April's ice-cream was yummy too... Immediately then I'd went over to hall 2, meeting ann, to EAT again. Gotta myself the famous beef balls soup; and the uncle was so nice to gimme an extra ball, and a little bit of his 青菜扣肉, which is his lunch. Oh manz, what a feast! Fortunately, ray was around to help out... hee. We then spent the next hour chatting and getting to know our concerns for CF; where thereupon, encouraging and sharpening our convictions.

Not long later, Ann had an urge of playing computer games. And I suggested arcade. Soon we were on a bus out to JP to play games... Wow i feel so young.. like punks that headed down to arcade after sch. And the games there at JP were so cheap ($0.50 per game) that i play so hard and broke my nails... hee Thereafter, I'd join char, grace, yongj, cher and vera to ARPC.

Aww... what a delightful day, that in the end, I thought it's the last day of term... not until Char poked me up when she kinda remind me tt i still have sch tml... haizzz

Something Familar...

I had visited to Ann's cg today... It was great... at there, i was conducive and easy in helping people to understand the passage... probably we are all girls... probably, it was thing that wasn't foreigner to me this year.
I had expressed to Poh Lin this afternoon that this year had been one with many changes... in term of sch work, in term of christian fellowship, in term of CG, in term of Music min and even in term of frens... it was so different fr the last 3 yrs.
Then now... i am back to a business cg.. i felt so home... =)

Missing Hall Life...

stay over @ char & grace's room last night... were up for a long and wonderful time of gals talk with charmain... this had been such a long time since i stay up late to chit chat w people liaoz... e feeling was wonderful... when we shared our deepest felt with one another during chit chat session like that...

Begin to miss hall life... aaawwww... i wanna stay in hall...

I wanna be able to meet up people for late supper and talk non-stop... i wanna to be able to study in the canteen immediately after CM without having to travel for 1 hour... i wanna b able to wake up 2 hour later to go to sch... i wanna be able to study without any temptations of TV, computer, bed and sis... ( cuz, i sometimes like to spend time disturbing and tok tok w her... and she's likewise... )

aaarrgg....

Sharing Christ...

I am very happy that I had gone for the tuition despite of my tiredness... cuz today, I had an opportunity to talk about Christ to my student. I had been praying for a chance to introduce Jesus to her, and today... as I asked her how has she been for the past few weeks ( haven't been giving her tuition for 3 weeks), I found room to tell her about Christianity... about us being man, had rebelled against God... about God being a righteous God has to punish us... abt us helpless to save ourselves... abt the historical Jesus who taken our place in punishment... abt the bible... abt the coming judgement... abt churches ( cuz she had to attend a church assigned by her sch, and she rem the church saying that Jesus is not God... I was so shocked... that's y i started the Christ-sharing w her)

She had listened patiently.. and asked a bit of qns. I don't know whether she understand or not for she didn't respond.. n i have no idea how to follow up w her... guess i hav to cont to pray for her..

Bad Habit...

haizzzz... having a bad habit of not attending school liaoz ... ! Had planned to go to school today; but seeing that i'm late for lesson, I decided to "phong" school.... so this week i had missed a total of 7 lectures liaoz.. this is not good.. ... Anyway, tried to complete my darned assignement while I am at home... sad..

Happy Birthday to Guofeng!

...Shirk! I missed the celebration for Guofeng's birthday...

The Past 3 Days...

oh.. it is so fast, now is the end of Thursday liaoz... didn't realized that the week had fly past till now ( when i logged in and see that i'd not blogged for 4 dayzz)...

Well, this had been a toilsome week.. many things to do.. yet little time... now, i just wanna take a break by resting my tired back against my comfy armchair...doing blog... thinking and reflecting on the things that had happened this week...

Mon was always a terrible day... but this week's Mon was quite alright... probably I'd skipped 4 lectures altogether... probably I gotta myself a banana muffin (w tree n ray) or it could be the "funniest games video" shown during sc443 lect that really caused me to laugh my head off.. be it what reason, I felt no stress even I hadn't hand up my assignment 3.. hee. But the CG wasn't good.. felt sick... puke after CG... and the guys (ray n nath) actually heard it... so embarrassing!

Tue.. however, is the worst day of the week... even though it's Pauline birthday... (I guess P's bday and meeting ziyang was the only things tt cheer up e day).. so much stuffs need to done in such short time.... mi very inorganised, gotta screwed because of that... unhappy... !

Wed was still no rest... wake up early... went to Sim Lim, waited for 4 hours..., so went shopping while waiting... bought lotsa stuff... happy! meet Ray for BS... didn't go for tuition... went home to set up the PC... fun and exciting and tiring.....