Thursday, April 28, 2005
Headache... probably what i need is a good night rest.. or a good cry... no.. probably what i need is that Christ can come back soon.
Saturday, April 23, 2005
The poor gal started to cried.. and i gotta a bit angry with the mum.. why she must she embarassed her child in front of an outsider like that... especially to someone that she respect..? i understand exactly how e gal feel.. because my mum is also like that.. my mum would go around telling my relatives and neigbours how lazy i was.. how late i always go home.. and then these relatives would all come up to me to either "suan" me or scold me..
I tried to comfort her.. and also assured her mum that her daughter is a lot better than others who are going thru their teen years too.. i was worse when in secondary sch. Then uncontrollably, .. her mum shouted across the table "stupid" at her.. and that's it.. i really cannot stand the mum liaoz.. "Oh auntie, you'd been back home for quite some time le... =) think you better go and wash up and take a rest ba.. think u r very tired too.." I tried to get the mum to leave us alone as gentle as i could... so that i can console her...
i know she hated her mum... i used to dislike my mum too but i dun hate her as much as she did becuz my mum, unlike hers, dun dare to hit me... she said she treat her as singing when she's talking... i understand that perfectly too because me and sis also did that.. But when i begin to understand the bible.. i began to see and understand that we are all sinful... that we all did not relate to God rightly, hence we cannot relate to one another rightly... we can't love... we can't be others-centered simply becuz we are lovers of ourselves...
I told her that and i told her to be understanding to her mum because she is a working mum. Not just to understand that she has a very tough life outside.. but to really understand that we all have a problem of us rejecting God... and not relating to God rightly. God made woman to help man.. not to have her taking up the role of man.. Working in the field is not the role of woman (or rather not the main role because she is to help).. and having ruling power is not the role of woman.. they are the roles of man. Rather, child bearing(Gen3) is the role of woman.. watching over the affairs of the household (Prov31) is the role of woman...
Both her mum and my mum have not know God.. they'd lived not according to what God had created woman to be.. therefore there's a broken vertical r'ship w God and hence a broken horizonal r'ship b/w them and their husbands.. and children. Working woman, is like using a spoon to eat noodle, it's frustrating, they faced more stress than working man, because they are working against their nature.. hope that you wouldn't get me wrong.. i am not saying that woman shall not work at all... if u read Prov31, u'll realised that she also make linen to sell.. this is what i mean of helping the man work in the field.. but that's not e main role.. and the whole Prov31 portrary the main role of woman as taking care of her household. So when all the energy and focus and desire is to earn lotsa money or prestige... it becomes frustrating for both the woman and the ppl ard her.
Understanding the gospel allows me to understand what being a human being is all about.. it motivated me to forgive.. and love.. love her much enough to share the gospel with her so that she can be saved. I ask the teen to forgive.. she shakes her head... I know that she wouldnt be able to forgive now.. but hopefully and prayfully i wish that she can know Christ... and be able to learn to forgive...
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
Monday, April 18, 2005
gotta some free tickets from my aunt..
think that i really cannot watch movie whilst knowing that i'm having a final paper soon... i just can't totally relax myself and allow myself to enjoy the movie.. the movie is interesting.. but i am just too occupied in my mind.. =S..
anyway i did have a good break lahz..
ahzz.. i saw this big poster on my way out after the show... the title really caught my attention manz.. especially when i had been thinking about the KOH these few days.. nahz.. but i think this movie will portray a different KOH rather than the second coming of Christ... nevertheless.. still think that this will be a good show.. from the director of gladiator eh... i love that show.. so this KOH show would not be that bad right... hint hint... =p
Sunday, April 10, 2005
haiz... sorry ahz.. those are just all the messy thoughts in my brain during that short 30 mins... anyway the sermon later is good and clear, with a great analogy in the end to bang in the idea that we loved someone whom we do not see because that is real thing.. more real that the things we do by sight... well i guess i dun really summarise well.. but if you wanna listen to this sermon.. pls go ahead.. =)
Friday, April 08, 2005
good that this robotics lab is not that tough.. oh.. and this is the first time working a project with yongjie.. now that realised that he is quite a perfectionist in school work too.. =p
studied with A** ( she told me not to keep mentioning her name in my blog) later in NIE.. picked up a few stones on the way... for me to play while i was bored while studying... for her to draw onto later to express her artistic side... if she has... =p
arrrgg.. anyway... this is what i like about school... where we have the lotsa time to do stupid things... =p heez.. nahz..! think i gonna miss the time in school manz...
Monday, April 04, 2005
reasons of coming back..? To continue the learning and teaching of the Word with and to the people in NTU... even without CF or a status in NTU..
Now.. I am kinda firm... prayed that the job i find may not take up too much of my time and energy in the future...