Have been thinking too much these few days... gotta myself trapped in this mess of thoughts... making myself depressed and dependent on myself...
What a wretched person I am... how can I have forgotten that I am dead to sin, alive to God in Christ Jesus? Why do I allow myself to be cooped up with my own stupid stuffs, when there is a much serious thing happening now to God's ministry?
I wanted to fight on..!! I wanted to be the good soldier of Christ Jesus, an athlete that run to get the prize, and a hardworking farmer waiting for the first crop.... May I be able to flee from the youthful desires and sins... may I consider Christ.
I am picking myself up now(with help from friends), so, do not come and ask me what happened to me... I DO NOT wish to arouse MY emotions again... my sins anymore. Talk Christ to me.. remind me to live a godly life, for Christ had set us free to righteous living.